Here is the deal. I by no means think that I am 'fat'. I know that I have my own insecurities, as we all do. The things that bother me about myself might not be something that would bother someone else. But I'm not someone else. I am me, and often times, I am not comfortable in my own skin.
The real question is... even if I achieve my goals... will I be happy there? When I first started on my weight loss journey almost 18 months ago (wow!) I had only wanted to reach 150.
I hit that, and wanted to go for more. I wanted to reach 140.
I hit that too. I didn't really set another goal after 140, but for the last 6 months or so I have been tettering around the 130-135 range.
Ever since we moved, I have lost my routine. I feel the winter fluff, and it's making. me. crazy.
So it's 'only a few pounds'. But that is where it starts people!! I weighed in this morning at... oh lordy... (138). Yes, I made it small for a reason, lol. That is a painful number for me after how hard I worked and knowing I have recently been down to as low as 130.
Fact is, I have gotten lazy. I have been stressed out. I have been eating things I know I shouldn't, and more than I need. I am hoping that by posting all of this for the world to see, two things will be accomplished.
1. It will keep me motivated to be able to actually show/see progress as I get back to my routine.
2. It will help anyone else who feels as though they have been slipping up to get back on track.
Staying with a diet is impossible for me. I need to eat what I want. If I don't, I will binge eat. That said, I was using simple portion control. Allowing myself a moderate amount of the things I crave to curb the craving and eliminating the chance of binge eating. So with the portion control, comes a serious workout routine. I have not tried P90X, but maybe I should :) I personally like GOING to a gym. I see people there with better bodies than me, and it pushes me harder. I know for some people, its the opposite.
So... after this, there will be no more chance of humility. It will all be out there, and all I can do is work my ass off to be able to post some awesome after pictures.
Here goes nothin...
My biggest problem area... thighs! I really feel like they have a mind of their own. They dont seem to fit with the rest of my body :/
Sorry the text came out so small in some. Well... not really, lol. So there they are! Just for reference... the next picture is what I would die for!!
OMG!! Carrie Underwoods legs are UH-mazing! Seriously. I was drooling last night watching Idol. Her legs are phenomenal, and I would love to be able to achieve that kind of change! I'm not holding my breath though ;)Are you planning a full body overhaul for Summer?
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