Ready for the next best thing.

I really hate days like today.

Actually, I take that back. Most of my day was really great! I got some girly time in with Bug. Boats was home most of the day so he got some much needed work on the cars done. Also, since he was home, I was able to get that fill for my nails taken care of (since I learned the hard way I'm not the kind of girl who cant have acrylics on anymore) that went far too long. On top of that, I was able to get an amazing work out in. Talk about OVER DUE! Ah, it felt great. I need to get back into my swing, but it still felt great. After dinner, I put Bug to bed, and Bubba stayed up for a bit with me and I helped him work on a poster for school.

But even after an over all good day, I'm in a not so good mood now.

There is a looming dentist appointment tomorrow.

Boats is finally able to put in for orders tonight. Even though he is submitting the request tonight, it doesn't mean anything until we get hard copy orders. We cant leave (since the kids and I will leave before him) until he gets the hard copies, and there is no such thing as a real time line in the Navy.

Some stuff back home has me in a weird place since there isn't anything I can do about it all from here, but I'm not the type that's ok with feeling helpless.

Overall, I'm pretty sick of this duty station and the yuckies it brings out in me. I have been pretty reclusive as of late in effort of keeping the BS out of my life, and its working pretty well, but I hate that I HAVE to do that. Why should I have to keep to myself just to keep awful people out of my life? In reality, I have had a lot going on at home lately with school and Boats' crazy hours and such. Sometimes I can help but blame the despicable people that I have encountered here for the complete flip in my outgoingness. Don't get me wrong, there are more wonderful people here than horrible, but those horrible ones... were/ are reeeeeeally horrible.

I have been praying to the ability to just let somethings go, not care as much, not be hurt by the actions of others, stop putting myself out there, but when I really think about, that's not fair of me to ask. Its pretty contradictory actually. After all, Luke 6:35-36 says "Love your enemies! Do good to them. Lend to them without expecting to be repaid. Then your reward from heaven will be very great, and you will truly be acting as a child of the Most High, for he is kind to those who are unthankful and wicked. You must be compassionate, just as your Father is compassionate."

With that said, I think some cookies and bible time are in order.

-Mrs. J